Saturday, January 29, 2011

Mondo Beyondo exploration - Intuition

Leaning into your intuition is a critical part of knowing how to move towards a Mondo Beyondo dream.

This is really a hard one for me. I don't usually let myself be particularly introspective and when I try to think of times I've followed my intuition, my thoughts just slip off my brain's teflon shell, skittering about, never really settling on anything, not even sure I've ever actually followed a gut feeling at all.

Then, trying to find another perspective, I realize I manage more of my life by intuition than I would have expected. I'm not a planner or a list maker. I'm not that good at doing what I'm supposed to or expected to do. And while I'm often willing to go with the flow, there are plenty of times I fight the current and hold my own, making a choice that just... seems right. I remember making the choice to move away with my then boyfriend of only 2 months (now husband of 32 years) so he could finish school. It probably wasn't the most logical or prudent choice. People told me I was making a mistake. But It just felt so obvious to me that moving was the right thing to do. What if I'd let logic win out? I am so very glad I didn't.

The relatively small choices are easy, but making the big leaps of faith are pretty scary particularly when others depend on you. I'd like to learn to recognize when my intuition is kicking in so I can explore the direction it wants to send me. Perhaps, in knowing, I'll be better able to choose that gut feeling instead of floating on past opportunities that might just lead to dreams fulfilled.